I've lost and gained weight on so many different diets that I could probably have amassed a small fortune! With each diet, I've always said that this would be the last and I would NEVER gain the weight back! Sure, my willpower (which is emotionally based...I didn't really realize that until recently) strong each time, I felt invincible, I felt that I could do this, I could "nip" the weight problem but slowly (slowly) the weight crept back on! I know I have an all or nothing trait...it's either I'm on a diet and exercising vigorously or I'm NOT on a diet, eating everything under then sun and no exercise! This rollercoaster / yo-yo dieting played such a havoc on my self-esteem and emotions that I am just TIRED of being TIRED. Tired of being fat, unhealthy, unattractive, winded, guilty, out-of-control, bingeing and feeling more guilty, hiding...the list goes on. I truly realize that this is my challenge that I MUST continuously work at for the rest of my life. Though this saddens me, I want this weight loss to stick. I want to go into maintenance with this conviction. I want to stop this yo-yo cycle. I want ... to be healthy, to look, feel and act healthy. I need to LOVE me, be kind to me, forgive me for the slip-ups, get right back on track and move on to a healthy start. I need to treat exercise as my tool in maintenance, not something that I punish my body with! I need to BREATHE! I need to deal with my issues WITHOUT food! In maintenance, I promise to do the following: (1) weigh myself EVERYDAY just for feedback, when the weight inches up, cut back! (2) PLAN my meals! fruits...veggies...protein (3) limit carbs I need to try again and again and again, until it sticks!